사랑해 , 비비안

2010-01-23T22:35:00.000+08:00

Vivian has moved !
http://crunk-rock.blogspot.com/

RELINK ME :D

2010-01-16T18:41:00.010+08:00

Lost in space.
"Room in your heart"

Just gotten another blog at xxx-xin.onsugar.com (Y)
It's all in Chinese. So, dont enter if you dk how to read.

I had a FANTASTIC time yesterday (:

Lessons as usual, wont bother to elaborate.
Had recess with Evania, Laiyi, Jiayi and Karmun for the first time O:
It was damn funny, omg. Kept laughing non-stop (Y)

After recess was POA. It was bad bad bad.
I almost fell asleep (-.-)"

Anyway, out with Evania and Laiyi after school (:
Bused down to 313 and had lunch at Food Republic.
We spent an hour plus there.
Ate, bitched and, WENT CRAZY TALKING ABOUT JING!
Not them, just me. Why? Cs our dear Laiyi got to talk to Jing
face to face for like 2hours during last year's Hit Award!
(Not telling why)
OMG, she went talking happily and Evania could feel me floating
and i was all excited and jealous D:

Urgh. Nevermind. It's good enough to hear about THOSE stuff.
You-know-what (:

Walked to Ion, had Bubble Tea. Continued to talk about
stuff and laugh like some insane.
I am happy. Seriously happy, cs i can express all my feelings,
freely. I dont have to worry about anything. Yeah, they know
me better compared to some others. And the most awesome thing
is that, we three share the same point of view. How great (:

Xoxo ;

2010-01-15T17:56:00.002+08:00

If eyes could speak.
"i want to share all my love"

I was browsing through blogs and i saw these really cute stuff (:
Yes, they are cupcakes. Aint they awesome ?

(L) Mayday !

Who's favourite? Wink!
Evania and Laiyi knows ^^

140110, Biology lesson.
I love both Chemistry and Biology lessons now (:

Xoxo ;

2010-01-11T20:28:00.003+08:00

For my ELim Shortie Bro (:

Haha! I tagged you blog about "it" alr.
Lol! You're effing mushy D: Dont do it anymore
or i will get a heart attack. Hehe.
Alrights. I know how serious you're about "it".
And obviously, your Master V will help you (:

Xoxo ;

2010-01-11T18:43:00.004+08:00

Can't get my eyes off you.
"I wish you were here with me, tonight"

I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

Tonight - FM Static

Xoxo ;

2010-01-10T20:55:00.004+08:00

Re-start.
"Falling one by one"

School started for a week alr.
New school rules suck to the max!
Hair about collar, pinafore touching knee caps and all. FUCK IT!
Those new rules are just craps. After a while, students
wont follow them anymore. Omg, it's like some rubbish can!
I am in Laura Lim's class for Chinese together with Swendi (L)
(Be glad Vivian, you are the only one from NA there)
I made new friends! (Y)
Found out who is Ms Victoria Foo's girlfriend O: ASK ME (:

I am happy with what i have now and i wont ask for more.
Y'know what? I am fine with being in NA now. People there are
somehow or rather more humble than people in Express.

I think it's blessing is disguise. I think i am way, way better than last
year now. At least, i have a clearer view of everything. Seriously, everything.

Great (:

Xoxo ;

2010-01-01T21:25:00.068+08:00

Fly away.
"You kept me thinking"

I only uploaded some cs there are way to many.
Will upload the rest from Day 1 - 3 when i am free (:

Day 4 at Li Jiang

Day 5 at Shangri-La

Day 6 at Yilang

Day 7 at Kunming

Day 8 and 9 at Shanghai

Xoxo ;

2009-12-30T19:06:00.000+08:00

All the right moves.
"Waking up darling"

Woke up at 8am while the Orientation is at 8.30am (-.-)''

Anyway, i am late.

Stood at where the class is and my mind went blank.

I swear no one will understand the feeling for that moment.

Went to our classrooms after the prayers or whatsoever.

Unwrapped the tables and chairs.

My class is just opposite J's O:

Took a tour around the school. It totally freaks me out.

The toilets, the classrooms, everything!

Seems like some kind of Girl's Home that is hunted or something.

Thank God it ended early (:

Btw, stare all you want, you idiots. Open up your fucking

big eyes and look at me. I am still fine.

Yes! I am in 3MM. So? I wont let y'all watch me fall.

Cabbed to Vivo with Swen, J and Amanda after the Orientation.

I miss Maswendi ! (Erzi) (:

Bought Sushi and then waited for parents to come pick me up.

Down to Queens to get my shoes. Omg, like finally! ><

Then to Town to have lunch, get my Body Shop stuff,

Mum's stuff and do some paper work for the new maid

Yes! My current maid is leaving on the 5 Feb 2010.

Nic and i got our cupcakes from Crystal Jade My Bread ^^ Sweet treat!

Left Town after everything is done and headed to Bugis Junction

to get my bag (:

Something happened after that. I am not mentioning a word.

Xoxo ;

2009-12-29T23:10:00.003+08:00

Ego.
"Deeper"

Glued to the television.

I am finishing the show soon. Cruel Temptation is

damnit nice! (:

Tmr's the school orentation. Fuck (-.-)''

Oh, for God's sake. Vivian Chan, pick up your fucking courage! ><

Yeah, none of you knows. Bye.

By the way, darling.

I am disguested by your acts. I just realised it.

Not too late i hope. Stop those foolish thoughts luh!

Afterall, you gain nothing from it.

Xoxo ;

2009-12-27T21:58:00.007+08:00

New Beginning.
"Stop those foolish acts"

Went for a haircut yesterday ^^ like finally.

I didnt cut the hairstyle that i wanted cs Mum thought that

this would be a better one. Nic and i got the same hairstyle now.

Lol. Yes! She cut away her long long hair.

Rights, random drawings. I was real bored.

Saw them in Jing's book. So yeah.

Cookies!

I baked them just now.
Haha! Nic kept stealing them ><
Nah, anyway it's for them to eat (:

Xoxo ;

2009-12-25T22:10:00.007+08:00

Kill my valentine.
"Letters that made me tear"

I think i am going to get my hair cut tmr.
Rather excited. Ready for the big change (:

我 , 下定决心 , 把所有的一切都忘掉 .
请你默默地为我加油吧 .

Xoxo ;

2009-12-23T22:01:00.005+08:00

Heart Pounding.
"Only if we feel the same way"

Hello darlings!
Yes, i am back! (:

had damn much fun and frankly,
i practically left everything behind when i was there.
(Excluding times when i am getting stuff for people)

Lol. I have damn loads of pictures.
When post them up when it's ready (:

When i randomly typed a URL, i typed in yours.
Read all about you and realised that you're doing better
than i thought. You kept everything of us aside, i think
i should do the same. Remembering those times we had our
hearts pounding, you're the inspiration of my song.

Xoxo ;

2009-12-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

Rated R.
"Is the feeling that matters"

I am blown to the top.
Nothing seems to go my way for this week (-.-)"

Shimin came over this afternoon to collect her dear
book. I can see the excitement in her ^^
Watched Jing's VCD togther. Yes! Eyes were glued to
the television.

Walked her to the bus stop at around 7.15 and went walking
around the neighbourhood, looking for some stuff.
Guess who i saw? VLee (-.-)"
Smiling and all with her son. RIGHT.

Leaving in three days time. Excited . (NOT!)

Xoxo ;

2009-12-09T23:03:00.010+08:00

宝贝你想吃什么甜点？我请你.　
"我融化了"

Addicted to Jing's book.

I am having her autograph book. OMG, seriously,

it's too good to be true.

Anyway, i am leaving on 13dec night for my trip and

will only be back on 23dec.

Xoxo ;

2009-12-07T22:40:00.013+08:00

361 Degrees.
"Head over heels"

YES! MY JING'S BOOK FINALLY CAME!

Omg, i am seriously, totally delighted when the postage came
in this afternoon. I was smiling to the book through out :D
It came with the VCD which shows the places she went in Tokyo.
Awesome!

Rights, i am happy now. So is Shimin. I can tell from her texts that
she is excited. Anyway, Min, you're going to collect yours from me
this Thursday ^^ Happy reading!

I am going for my dental appointment tmr afternoon ):
After tmr, i think i will damn busy packing my stuff for
my trip. I think i shant be so happy though cs of some stuff (-.-)''
Okay, i am not going to talk about it - seriously a killjoy.

Xoxo ;

2009-12-01T20:57:00.003+08:00

Tells a million.
"Selfish or selfless"

Dont make promises when you know you'll break it.
Dont make friends when you know they aint true.
Dont be in a relationship when you know you're unfaithful.
Dont pretend when things are alr aint right.
Dont pretend to be selfless when you're selfish.
Dont pretend to be kind when all you know is to make use.
Dont pretend to be innocent when you're the worse among all.
Dont cry when you created your own downfall.
Dont blame others when you're to blame.

Xoxo ;

2009-11-30T18:09:00.009+08:00

Rock and Roll.
"Tokyo night in the Love Hotel"

I like today best (:
Morning call from J at 10.20am (i sounded dead dont i?
But i actually woke up at 10.10am). Lol.
Left the house at 11.10am, without Dad's permission O:
But i texted and told him i'll be back by 2.30pm.
Yeah, he threatened to confiscate my phone if i am late.

Anyways, down to CT to meet J.
Be glad, i am early this time round and i waited for you
for 10mins ^^
Bought our drinks then went to look for those tees i want.
I thought of buying two different type of tees. Unfortunately,
i only found one that i like. Sadden. OMG! I really love the shirt i bought.
It's like with the E-guitar print on. \m/ LOVE IT !

Ate lunch at KFC. I know i aint suppose to. Yes, my freaking
throat is killing me. But someone just have a hard time on deciding
where to eat. We nearly spent 20mins or more just to decide. LOL!

Oh yeah, i bought the cover for my dear phone, like finally.
Walked around and all. Then left for home. I reached home at
2pm. So yes, my phone is still with me (:

Sad. I cracked my nail on the way and freaking hell, i dont
even know how it cracked. Urgh!
Filed my nails and i got so irritated that i told my Sis that we shall
do a medi tgt and i will bill.
Of cs, she was happy cs she dont have to pay a single cent.
Well, it's okay. Just money. Anyways, i saved up cs of Jing's
book. Since my Aunt is getting for me for X'mas, might as well
use the money.

It's also a way to bond with Nic. We really drifted too much for
the pass 10 years. Why? Cs of my fucking maid. I always have this
feeling that she is trying to pull Nic and i apart. (-.-)''
Wtv, she is going soon (:
Even Nic said this "You know i like it when we go overseas.
Cs we wont fight at all and you will not hear things you dont want
to hear." Aww, how sweet right? Just love her,
though she could be annoying at times. (L)

Xoxo ;

2009-11-29T23:10:00.002+08:00

Whatever you like.
"I am V"

I am all excited for the overseas trip on 14dec.
But here i am, falling sick. Seriously hate it. Bad sore throat
but somehow or rather, i prefer my voice now (:

Met Shaza at the school back gate to collect my suspenders
from her. I like it, very much.
Did some random chat with Carin over the phone this
afternoon. Yeah, same old topic. I realised, i miss you.
Hopefully we can do some shopping tgt again, soon (:

I am going out tmr to get some stuff.
I pray hard that i can get those stuff i want.

Xoxo ;

2009-11-26T12:34:00.038+08:00

Pictures are up(:

Xoxo ;

2009-11-24T14:39:00.007+08:00

Makes me wonder.
"It wont hurt anymore"

Makes me wonder. Oh yeah.
Now, i am seriously wondering.
Why get myself into this kind of state? Urgh.
FUCK!

I will figure it out soon.
Try playing hard, i will play harder.
It doesnt work anymore. It will only make thing
worse. (-.-)

Know your limit. No question ask.

Xoxo ;

2009-11-20T18:14:00.016+08:00

Cold blooded.
"Heart made of ice"

I am talking to Evania online now.
And yes, we can never say "we digest through heart" or
"we breathe through diaphragm" anymore. Probably get mock at.
Guess what? We both did that in Primary school. How stupid. Lol.
I always thought i wont miss it. But as we talk about it, i do miss it.
The class was small in P6 but we had so much fun tgt.

Speaking of school. Yes, it's time to face the music. I dropped.
You wont know how much it took for a person like me to accept this.
Even if i appear to be fine, my heart still aches when we talk about it.
Yeah, whose fault? I'm to blame. I tried not to think about it but
everynight when i am lying on my bed, this issue will flow into my
mind subconsciously.

When everyone happily went back to school to check the new
class allocation, i was somewhere else, worrying what i have been
worried for ever since i know i dropped.
Yes, i didnt get into the class i want. Anyway, there is only two
classes. So, you got me yeah? I stared at the new class list.
It really shut me up and got me boiling. I wont say much here.

For one thing that i believe, i wont be able to work with people who
dislike me or who i dislike. I understand myself better than anyone else.
Hence, it gave me the right to said it.

Whatever the case it, i just need some time to completely accept all these.
Why is everything happening is fast?
Why is everything happening at the wrong time?
Why is everything happening to me?

I feel like transferring out. I aint trying to escape from the fact,
cs i know this is final. Just that i would rather start a new environment
then to stick with an environment that i jolly well know that it aint
suitable for me. Dont bother to ask me to try. This is my mindset.
Call me stubborn, i dont care. This is me accept it or not.
Probably another environment will suit me better for all you know.

And one more thing. Even if you people laugh at me,
thinking that i deserve it, i will tell you this.
Go ahead for all i care. Laugh all you want.
I wont care about how you see me or
what you say about me. I just want the best for myself.
Nothing's wrong. I swear i will never let y'all see the weaker
side of me. No big deal. I just have to start all over.

You,
I sense something. I just dont want to make a fuss.
I dont want to talk about it. You know me. I would rather
keep quiet. Stop what you're doing. Dont tell me to accept you
for who you are or whatsoever. I dislike it, get it?
Those are not something you should do.

Dear Mum,

Thank you for being there during the worst part of my life.
I am really grateful that instead of telling me off, you encouraged me.
I mean, which Mum could actually do that? Not even a word of scolding.

Tell me, which mother would secretly be upset over her daughter's
result - not even telling her daughter what's going on and simply
keep quiet and bear with all the disappointment. I think others will just
tell their daughter off, which, i thought you would. But you didnt.
You even went down to PS to specially get the Korean Drama i wanted.
How touched could i get?

At that point of time, i felt that i am much closer to you,
compared to back then. You wont know how bad i
felt towards you and Dad. I totally let you guys down. It isnt true that
i didnt care. I just dont want to show it. To be honest, i felt sad
when Dad told me that you simply tear your face, went down to school
and spoke to the Principle for me about the dropping thing.
If i could rewind the time, and if i knew that earlier, i will never
allow you to do that. I will never allow you to go there and let them
humiliate you or whatsoever.

(Speaking of that makes me so mad. Pauline Wong you watch out!
I will never let you speak to my Mum that way again. I really feel
like slapping your fucking face. Go eat shit or something.
As long as i am living, i will curse you EVERYDAY! Curse you to death!)

But till that very day,
when Nic told us that she got chosen for the prefect interview.
I remembered clearly that you said this "Dont go to your Jiejie's school
luh. When you are Sec one, she will be in Sec five. So no face, your
Jiejie study five years."
I know you guys are proud of her, so am i. But have you people spared
a thought for me before saying anything? Probably it was by accident
but it's still stuck in my mind. I know how much i appear as if i dont care
and it doesnt matter but the fact is that i do. What you guys say matter
to me more than anything else. That night, i started thinking.
I thought you told me that both you and Dad agreed that dropping
wasnt a bad news? It's just that i am studying in a slower pace?
Then why is it that you are saying this now?

But on a second thought, yes, who to blame? I am to blame, aint it?
I thought i was pissed with you at that moment, but i aint.
Cs not long later, you brought us out. And as usual, Nic and i will
find something we fancy and want to buy them.
Perhaps, you didnt even have a second thought when you buy them.
This made me think, so hard. Why should i even get mad at you
when you alr did everything for us. You practically gave the best
to us. What else could i be asking for?

I know you did your best. And i am trying. I need you to know that i am.
I need you, tgt with Dad to support me all the way.
You know i am full of Big Dreams. I want to work toward them.
I need you to know that i want it. As long as you guys are there,
i wont mind even if i have to give up the rest.
This is how much you mean to me. Regretfully, i know this
a little too late. Even so, i will try to mend back all those little holes.
I want more happy memories with you guys. Not only those unhappy ones.

Pay more attention on me, try to understand me a little me more.
I will be much happier. I am 14, not 4 anymore.
I love you, more than you think i do.

Xoxo ;

2009-11-19T23:50:00.015+08:00

一鸣惊人.
"Crazy and wild"

Hey Super, cheer up alright.
Everything will be fine very soon cs you
have Swen, J and i with you (:

One : Out with Swen, Amanda and J this morning.
Two : Went bowling at Safra, Swen improved (:
Three : Took many pictures.
Four : Will upload them when J pass me the thumbdrive.
Five : I had fun (:
Six : Took a bus to Lucky Plaza with Nic and Jennifer in the afternoon.
Seven : Chose our new maid (Most likely is Vanessa)
Eight : Went shopping. Nic and got the stuff we want (:
Nine : Back to Grands and had dinner.
Ten : Had late night talk with Amanda. I feel sorry for you ):

Xoxo ;

2009-11-13T22:08:00.005+08:00

Yes, that's the book Shimin and i ordered! (:
It's coming real soon. Love Jing (L)

Xoxo ;

2009-11-13T21:27:00.008+08:00

Sweetdreams.
"In a mess"

Hey. It's a Friday. J is back.
Tuition again tmr and i am going crazy! (-.-)"

Having mixed feelings now.
I dont know what exactly should i do. Wrote a super long
letter ytd night, but i aint sure if i will give it to ya.

Feel like tranferring out OUT OUT OUT!
Feel like as if everything is happening at the wrong time.
Feel like leaving everything behind and do what exactly i want.
Feel like saying the truth that is always hiden.

Feel like SCREAMING them all OUT!

No questions ask.

Xoxo ;

2009-11-11T20:56:00.008+08:00

Outstanding.
"Shine like a star"

Today is pretty okay.
Left the house around 10.30am, left for Tiong
with Mum, Belinda and Jo.
Had BK for breakfast! Awesome (:

Went to do some marketing then homed.
Had lunch and all. Left for PS and Funnan at 3plus
and came back at 5plus. Lol!
Dinner was a spread. Right.
Had fun talking about some silly incidents (:
I give two thumbs up!

Tmr, i have been waiting for this day for like
5years. My current maid is going!
We are getting a new maid and tmr we will be going
down to the maid agent to look for another maid.
Yes! Like finally, omg ^^

I've been thinking about it for the whole
of ytd's night. I think the problem lies on me.
I cant seem to put myself through it.
I really dont know how to express it. I will make
it clear to you one day.

Xoxo ;

2009-11-10T21:59:00.002+08:00

Guitars and drums.
"Singers"

Think she is hott like anything (:
Love to the max! (L)

Xoxo ;

2009-11-08T21:48:00.003+08:00

Composing.
"To be that rocker"

Shimin and i are going to buy Jing's book.
Preordered it online and it's with signature (:
Happy!

SOMEONE promised to meet online after Saturday (7.11.09)
at 9pm. I waited for 54mins and that SOMEONE is still
not online ): Bet you forgot right? LOL.
Imy.

Xoxo ;

2009-11-07T23:08:00.006+08:00

私をあなたを世話することを許可しなさい
"Heart and soul"

I love Jing! (L)

Xoxo ;

2009-11-06T16:06:00.044+08:00

黒いスカート.
"The story behind her song"

1. Happy Birthday to dearest Carin ! (:
2.Singapore Hit Awards 2009 is tonight!

铁定出席11月6日颁奖典礼的歌手/音乐人有:
歌手：

S.H.E / 五月天 / 蔡健雅 / 萧敬腾 / 梁文音 / 徐佳莹 /
黄靖伦 / 张芸京/ Olivia Ong / 迷路兵 / 陈伟联 / 蔡艾珈 /
黄智阳 / 陈彼得 / 邱意琳 / 叶敦鸿 / 陈迪雅 / 杨佳莹

Jing is going for it! (:
Sadden, i cant go ): But it will be on TV so yeah!
So gonna watch it (:

Okay, overdue pictures from Grandma and Grandpa's Birthday.

Pictures will do the talking.

I miss J!

Xoxo ;

2009-11-04T22:01:00.008+08:00

Dumbbell.
"Need you more than i thought"

Havent been blogging for quite a while.
Blog is dead. =/

Didnt sleep the whole of yesterday night.
Texted J till 12am then watched BOF till 4.45am and carried on
with texting J. Yeah yeah, she left her house at 6am to the
Airport for Perth ): She will be away for 9 days! J, you'd be
happy cs i stayed up for you ! ^^ Come back soon alright.
Miss you (L)

Thanks to Shimin. Lol. Texted me the whole day.
Lucky you're here (:

I have pictures with J, will post it up when she's back.

Xoxo ;

2009-10-26T19:17:00.005+08:00

Traitors.
"Full of yourself, never true"

哈哈. 我看穿了你的如意算盘 (:

Just felt like typing in chinese. Lol.

Anyway, tmr will be my "deadline". I am doom for sure.

Wish me luck then.

Xoxo ;

2009-10-25T17:44:00.003+08:00

Crazy over you.
"A simple person is someone who knows herself"

Love you big time (:

Xoxo ;

2009-10-23T17:00:00.005+08:00

Mr or Ms right.
"I wont care about what others say"

HAHAHA! I am going nuts, in case you didnt know(:

Well, whatever the case is, i am prepared for the worst.
Yeah! Part and pacel of life hence, there is nothing to
be afraid about.
Even if i have to be alone, i will make sure i survive throughout.
Prove you wrong! I wont let you get a chance to watch me fall (:
Not even a single bit.

Xoxo ;

2009-10-22T20:04:00.005+08:00

Homosexual.
"She is a bisexual, i am a lesbian"

Sorry.

Xoxo ;

2009-10-20T19:55:00.004+08:00

Just on the outside.

"No undo"

難過是因為悶了很久 , 是因為想了太多 ,
是心理起了作用 . 你說苦笑常常陪著你 ,
在一起有點勉強 ,
該不該現在休了我 . 不想太多 ,
我想一定是我聽錯弄錯搞錯 .
拜託我想是你的腦袋有問題 . 隨便說說 ,
其實我早已經猜透看透不想多說 , 只是我怕眼淚撐不住 .
不懂你的黑色幽默 , 想通卻又再考倒我 .
說散你想很久了吧 , 我不想拆穿你 .
當作是你開的玩笑 , 想通卻又再考倒我 .
說散你想很久了吧 , 敗給你的黑色幽默 .

Xoxo ;

2009-10-18T22:08:00.007+08:00

To be a rock star.

"What's your principle"

在两个人的世界里不该有你 . 为什么道别离 ,
又说什么在一起 . 如今虽然没有你我还是我自己 .
说什么此情永不渝 , 说什么我爱你 .
如今的我依然没有你我还是我自己 .

Xoxo ;

2009-10-17T23:11:00.003+08:00

Heart of stone , full of pride.

"The time now is 11:11"

Well, yes. I am going for a big change.

Kind of excited to see it as well (:

Something stuck me to do "it".

I was pretty shock when i saw it. Yet, i have nothing to say.

I cant believe that i am like that now. I keep telling myself that

is because of "that" that changed me. But it is completely crap.

What for lying to myself? When i know very well that it isnt the

main reason why. It's all in my hands, if i want it or not.

Mean, it is just part and parcel of life. Why must i take it so hard,

when it's over and i know very well that i have already moved on

a long time ago. Why am i still lingering there and for that,

it caused me so many problems.

Rights, think i should just start changing back to my normal self.

To think about what i have done and all, it's rather scary.

Even i myself cant accept it. All i did was to lie to myself.

It's time to start it all over again with a new perspective.

It'll definitely do me good.

Xoxo ;

2009-10-17T18:01:00.008+08:00

Big Dreams.

"Put all the unhappiness aside"

Bought Jing's album yesterday (: Just too hott (!!!)

Well, was on the Music Focus site. Probably joining the guitar

course with Shimin and Amanda. If not i will go for solo.

Since i have no CCA now, why dont go for something else i like

outside school. Anyway i have the basics for guitar.

Regretted dropping guitar at Yamaha last year ):

But at least i found a better Music school now.

Yesterday, went to Cine with Swendi, Jess, Amanda and Inez.

Watch Midnight Meat Train. Freaking scary. I scream till my throat hurts.

It's too bloody. But Miss Sadist Inez Hor likes it O.o lol.

Guess what? I was texting Crystal the whole of yesterday and at Cine,

when we went to exchange the dise, i saw Crystal. Fated, haha!

So far the happiest thing is that i got Jing's CD (:

Many more happy things to come along i hope.

Firstly, my results of course. Kind of worried. Sadden.

And i want to learn guitar in that music school. Hope that Mum will allow.

Like seriously, i want it badly. I dont mind paying half of the fees.

Okay, after deep thought, i am going to chop my hair off,

end of the year. So bye, hair. I wont miss you (:

Wont cut too much. Shorter than what it's now

will be good. My fringe as well. I wont want long fringe. Maybe just

a little shorter or something (:

For another thing, guess i'll stop being so "gay".

(Winks ^^ to Swendi, Carin, Jess, Amanda and co)

Yeah, found it a little over. Wait till you see the new me (:

Thanks to S.Xuan and Qy for helping me download those MV (: Loves!

Xoxo ;

2009-10-16T22:31:00.001+08:00

Too hott to be true.

"My new love, Jing"

张芸京 , Jing ! (L)

破天荒的爱上张芸京

Xoxo ;

2009-10-09T21:07:00.005+08:00

Any one but not you.

"Cs i trust you more than any one out there"

One : I cant believe that you have doubts in what i said.
Two : Believe it or not, no means no.
Three : I realised one BIG thing this week.
Four : I dont need you people out there, i expected this from the start.
I am waiting for the ending though.
Five : Jess did something today(: I am happy about it. That's the perfect
choice. You did me proud(: Lets wait for the perfect ending.
Six : Drop the act, i am tired of it.
Seven : Talked to Evan this evening. She pointed out something
which i never thought of. It's so true. It makes me wonder.
Eight : OH! Neither do want to see you(:
Nine : Wont touch the computer anymore till next week.
Ten : Off to study.

Xoxo ;

2009-10-07T20:42:00.000+08:00

Owe you a life time .

"Trust with no doubts"

Thank you big time . I am sorry if i always have to trouble you.
But only you could ease my heart.
Idk why but somehow or rather you have the "power" to.
Thanks for your trust - you didnt have doubt in me when i
told you what happened.

You said "you will put whatever i say in your head meh?"
If you didnt know, i did. I put every single thing into my head. I remembered every word, seriously.
Whatever the case is, thanks for being there. (L)

Xoxo ;

2009-10-04T19:57:00.012+08:00

Lead my heart , i am fucked up .

"Have been ages ever since we last did our daily routine.

but it all seem like a yesterday"

I dont like people who dont know their limit.

Thinking that they are better or whatsoever,

commenting about what others say.

Well, their life is not up to your to bother or comment on,

when you dont even know them well enough.

What bullshit.

Yes, that makes me hate both of you even more (:

If i was right.

I will pour everything out one day, you wont like that honey.

Xoxo ;

2009-10-03T22:50:00.002+08:00

Hangover. The duration or the feeling.

Tuition sucks today.
Maybe cs i didnt have enough sleep.
I kept yawning. I was practically day dreaming there,
with my ear-piece on.

After tuition, brought Nic for ballet then Mum decided to
bring me to Kenko. I did the Aromatic Foot Bath and Shoulder Massage
while Mum did the Aromatic Foot Bath and Shoulder Massage and
Foot Reflexology. It was damn relaxing. AWESOME!
I wanna do it again next week. Guess i will go alone or something (:

Dad came to pick us with Nic later with Mum's car.
Quite nice. And yes, Mum bought another car thus we
have two cars now!

Went home and Nic had her Science tuition.
Over to Grands, had dinner and all.
Talk talk, played with those paper lanterns.
Had a great time ^^

I have much more to say put i dont know how to
put them in form of words. Practically, i am clueless.
I know the answer, yet i am still hesitating.

Starting to dislike everything you do.
I dont think that should be the way but there is just
something missing. It still wont be enough, no matter how
much is being done.

Pictures up tomorrow (:

Xoxo ;

2009-10-01T12:54:00.007+08:00

One : HBL sucks big time ! D:
Two : I dislike Sister J !
Three : I want Nails date with Super soon (:
Four : I am tired of giving in ):
Five : I want a hair cut soon.
Six : I get the final say.

Xoxo ;

2009-09-27T17:40:00.014+08:00

I used to be love drunk.
Cig.

Hands off our "Porkchop" or we, the "Steak" , "Fish&Chips" and "Lambchop"
will come get you(: - inside stuff.
Honey, watch your mouth, you aint any better.

Life is short, dont ever waste it.
Life is sweet, take time to taste it.
Life is a journey, find the right path.
Life is entertaining, dont be afraid to laugh.
Life is for good times, make them last.
Life has its bad times, put them in the past.
Life is a chance, make sure you take it.
But most importantly,
Life is what you make.

She says she is in love, i say i dont need a man.

Xoxo ;

2009-09-26T16:46:00.016+08:00

Where's my goodbye.

Oh, i almost forgot.
I went to the IT Fair on 120909 Saturday.
AND! I got a new phone and new line(:
Contented. I will study harder and smarter.

As usual, went for tuition early in the morning.
I kind of like it now(:
"Subset, set. Subset, set.", "A is the subset of this, this and this."
Maths is killing me D:
Nahh, i am still going to study.

Rights. Rin, Shaza, Alexia and i were given 3 days
of detention of playing truant during Maths lesson.
Well, the last day of detention was yesterday but i dint attend school
so it will be Monday for me (:

Well, idk why Rin and Alexia joined Shaza and i but the reason
why Shaza and i decided to skip that period is cs Maths will Ms Loke
sucks and it's super BORING!

It will be like this, MOST of the time :

Ms Loke : Good morning/afternoon girls.
Class : Good morning/ afternoon Ms Loke.

Take out textbooks and pens.

Ms Loke : Okay, turn to page 112 and look at Question 4.

She will do the sum on the board and ask us to copy it down.
This will repeat at least 3-4 times. And while she's doing, some will talk,
some will stare at the board/ book.
After she finish her crap, she will say this :

Ms Loke : Turn to page 113 and do Questions 7,8,9,10.

The class will just do and do and she will sit there, day dream,
walk around the class or stand at the door and pose -.-
I think it's a total waste of time.

Anyway, on the day when we skipped lesson, yeah, we were in the
toilet. She caught us there.
Rin and Alexia went back to their class and Ms Loke used our cellphone
to call Shaza and my dad on the spot.

Whatever, my dad only asked to be behave, that's it.

And Ms Loke carried on with "You two are always gone together,"
blah blah.
"Go toilet so long for what? YOU LOOK AT MY HAIR, I LOOK AT YOUR HAIR."
Gosh, Shaza and i seriously wanted to laugh when she said that.
Guess she was too pissed that she left us outside.
Immediately when she went in, Shaza and i burst out of laughter :D

Whatever it is. I dont care. I hardly listen during Maths lesson.
I improved is cs of my tuition.
I will either gossip with Shaza or doddle on the book(:

Cant blame us if we are like that cs the teacher herself is a slacker too ^^

I spent many nights thinking about some stuff.
Well, i've straighten out my thoughts.
It's okay if we are in this state now, as long as you are fine with it.
I know there's nothing else i could do. I am not going to hate you for
this, cs i am to blame. ~~Greatest Regret.~~ Best mistake.
I will forget about you.

edited at 21:25

I am a BITCH.
Well, for all i care(: I am the bad one here, so?
Yarh, all my fault.
I WONT care about how you feel, when you dont care about how i feel.

You dont know how much i actually care.
Forgotten not forgiven.

Xoxo ;

2009-09-25T16:20:00.002+08:00

170909 Thursday

We are finally done with that stupid History project.
Thanks to those who helped(:

1609009 Wednesday

Playground outing with Swen, Rin and Alexia.

Thank me for this loving picture, sweethearts(:

150909 Tuesday

Tea Chaper(:

Was kind of fun. Swendi, Carin, Amanda, Inez, Hannah, Iyun and QY

were in my group. I swear it's super funny :D

130909 Sunday

Moving outing with Nic and Qi (:
Caught G-force (3D). I went gaga after the movie O:

Xoxo ;

2009-09-11T16:30:00.011+08:00

Wednesday (9 Sept)

Dad picked me up and sent me to Downtown east
for Swen's chalet.
Reached there around 1330. Put down my stuff,
packed the room a little then headed to Escape with
Jess, Rin, Swen and Amanda.
Played till we all go crazy, scream our lungs out.
It was dammit fun(:

Went back to the chalet in the evening, washed up
and had dinner. Up to the bowling area, played two games.
Jess and Swen are not bad eh! ^^

Played till quite late though.
And Swen till wanted to go Kbox.
So there we go. Sat down for a while, ordered drinks.
Jess and i left about half an hour later to walk back to
the chalet to collect my bag. Took a super slow stroll back to
Kbox then to the carpark to meet my Dad.
Left there around 2315(:

Pictures up next time.

Thursday (10 Sept)

Woke up super early. Washed up and got ready to
leave for Zoo. Pick my aunt and cousins up and Dad drove there.
It was damn warm. Still we walked around the whole Zoo.
It was kind of fun. Had lunch at KFC and got into the KidzWorld for rides.
^^ it was so adorable! And i killed a stupid spider! HAHAH.

Left there around 1630 then left for Flyers.
We only have four tickets so Nic, Wen, Tong and i went up.
Had an awesome 30mins! (:
Homed around 1800.

Today

Well, i am rotting at home.
My head is aching like shit.
But at least tmr and Sunday will be GREAT!
I am going to catch a movie tmr with Mum, Nic and co.
And i will be going to the IT fair on Sunday. After which i, together with Mum
and her friends will be going to my aunt's place to get our iTouch/iMac/iPhone done
with the help of my uncle. Bravo! (:
*Wink wink, IT fair!

First i was afraid, i was petrified.
Kept thinking i could never live without you by my side.
But i spent so many nights thinking how YOU did me wrong,
i grew strong, i learned how to carry on.

Sorry, i have changed.
I dint want to as well but i've learned. Learned about
every single thing/person around me.

Sometimes, at the back of my head i will wonder
if you are only a dream or you truly exist.
Cs things happened too fast and they are gone, too soon, seriously.

If only the world is left with me and you.

Edited at 22:49 ;

Quiz!

1. Do you eat alot of fast food?
Not so.

2. Have you kissed anyone in 2008?
Hahah, yes.

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
Not so, thanks so my stupid maid -.-

4. What did you last get upset about?
You

5.Do you eat candy on a daily basis?
Nope! I dont like candies.

6. What about in your 5th sent message?
Nothing much. It's to Jess (:

7. Who was the last person you ate with?
Forgot O:

8. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Tong(:

9. When ordering sushi, what do you get?
Salmon! ^^

10. Who was the last person you sat next to?
Jess!

11. What were you doing at 10 am?
Waiting for Jess to come over O:

12. Have you changed alot since summer?
Yes, no doubts.

13. What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
F&N Grape D:

14. Where is the place you want to be right now?
Back to Wednesday, at the Chalet(:

15. When was the last time you cried?
Quite sometime. I dont cry, easily.

16. What's your favourite song at the moment?
Any of the PCD's ! (:

17. What were you doing at 11 last night?
Texting.

18. Who's near you?
Oh! Sinwei lives near me.

19. What were you doing at 5 am in the morning?
Sleeping.

20.What's bothering you right now?
My heart, my mind.

21. Who was the last person to talk to you on the phone?
Jess(:

22. Whose house did you go to last?
Jess, together with Swen and Rin! ^^

23. Who honestly knows everything about you?
What do you think when even i myself dont.
But wait, someone used to. Not any longer, though.

24. Who broken your heart?
I forgot.

25. Honestly, do you love someone very much?
Yes(:

26. Who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
-

27. Are you friends with the last person you kissed?
-

28. Are there any parts of your body that hurts?
My head D:

29. In the supermarket, the first thing that gets your attention is?
Chocolates! ^^

30. How cool do you think you are?
Not at all.

31. Drugs are?
Whatever.

32. Which one do you hate the most?
Too realistic.

33. Who was the first person to text you today?
Jess.

34. What was the first thing you did this morning?
Pick up the phone -.-

35. Who was your last missed call on your cellphone?
Jess.

36. What's the last mistake you made?
I realised my mistake, but it's too late.
You're already gone.

37. What are you listening to right now?
Stickwitu - PCD

38. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
YongDai (:

39. Who is the last person that call you?
-

40. Is there anything you want to say to someone special?
Love you (L)

Xoxo ;

2009-09-10T22:30:00.015+08:00

One : HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWENDIMA HUBBY ! (8 Sept)
; Loves from your Ms. Clumsy ^^ (L)

Two : Happy Birthday Inez !(6 Sept)
; Wont forget yours since you remembered mine ^^

Will blog about what happened this week tmr or something.
And FUCK that bitch. Watch your mouth, honey(:

Xoxo ;

2009-09-06T20:54:00.004+08:00

I only believe in myself.
I only trust what i see.

I love my Hubby and my Princess (L)
And, my Brother is freaking hot! (:

My hand got burn when i was cooking
spagetti for my mum and i ):
It's fuck pain and she's telling me that she
dont want to eat it ><
Fuck.

Xoxo ;

2009-09-05T21:50:00.004+08:00

3 more days to my GGF HubbyMa's Birthday!

Friday

Yes, Swen, Rin and i went over to Jess's.
Had so much fun. And! Jess's maid cooking is awesome(:
Unlike mine, lazy like fuck -.-

Jess and Rin got horney watching the R-rated movie i brought over.
They were so engross to it. Swen and i kept talking about it
in the study room :D OH! The 8-inches thingy as well O:

Took loads of pictures, laugh till drop.
Left at 1630. I took a cab home!(:

Today

Well, i am running a temperature but who cares.
No big deal (:

You two are a perfect match cs you both are
a two faced bitch. Just cant take your fuck attitude.
Making use of everyone around you for some pathetic, no life idiot.
C'mon, you aint bigshot.
Whatever the case it, it's none of my business.
I'm only there to catch a free "movie" (:

Xoxo ;

2009-09-04T23:24:00.002+08:00

Went to Jess house today(:
Pictures will do the talking.

Xoxo ;

2009-09-03T23:10:00.008+08:00

Your Guardian Angel.

Farewell Winwill. I will miss you(:

One :
I love you (L)

Two :

Don’t be a bitch.
If you want to warn me or whatsoever, come straight to me.
Don’t be such an ass. If it’s yours, no matter what, it will be.
If not, so be it. FACE THE FACT!
Before you push the blame on others, look at your own ability.
Words but no action. I’m simply waiting for that day.
May God Bless YOU. Btw, drop that act, you aint up to that.

Three :

So you people think you are effing cool now?
NO, ya’ll aint. Such lames asses.
Reflect on yourselves first. You guys aint any better.
Just a bunch of monkeys with fucking no brains.
Watch your mouth, fucktard!

Four :

You, please, for goodness sake, wake up!
You wont know even if you’re being used.
I just feel like knocking some sense into you darling.
I am saying this cs I care for you. (If you dint know)

Five :

If only rewinding of time exist.
You will never know how much I actually care.
Cs you dint bother to even try.
Probably, you don’t need it. Probably, you’ve already forgotten
But I am sorry, I haven’t.
This is for you. With no name but you will be able to feel it when you read it.

Six :

Crystal!(:
Last long with Y. Catch up soon (L)

Xoxo ;

2009-08-30T21:21:00.004+08:00

I'm sorry.

I love Bird Nest, thanks mum!(:
I have drinking it for the past two days.
I'm lovin it.

Xoxo ;

2009-08-29T22:07:00.004+08:00

I wish I was more warm-blooded,
then I can more sensitive to the things around me.
I might be selfish but i want the best for myself.

I just cant take it any longer.
Fuck you bitch. I think you're two faced.
Drop your act, i think it's gross.
If you want people to respect and like you, please respect
others first. You think you're so great here?
I will see how you die when time to come.

HubbyMa :

Takecare alright! Dont sprain another ankle ^^
I love you (L)

Rights, i am off for my Bird Nest now(:

Pride is the price i pay.

Xoxo ;

2009-08-28T22:07:00.001+08:00

I feel as if you have something to tell me
when i looked into those eyes.
I miss you.

Xoxo ;

2009-08-25T19:47:00.001+08:00

My dearest HubbyMa :

Sorry for letting you tolerate my nonsense for the
past one week and i thank you for treating me nicely still.
I love you ! (L)

Went to IMM with Jess, Swen and Rin after school.
Had pasta(:
Cabbed to Swen’s tuition center to enroll Rin then walked
to the specs shop to make Rin’s lenses O:

Took a slow walk to the train station then trained home
While to rest left for Swen’s place.

I had a great time with them three(:
I love ya’ll to to the max!

Xoxo ;

2009-08-24T23:08:00.003+08:00

A friend knows the song in my heart and sings it
to me when my memory fails.

Went Bugis with Jess this afternoon to get my stuff(:
Caught The Proposal as well. Thumbs up ^^
Had Bread Talk after the movie then trained to Tiong and homed.
I love J (L)

Fuck that Bitch

You better stop all your fucking rubbish now.
How cool can it get? You think you have all of them by your side?
Bull shit! I thank God for THOSE numbers you have gotten.
You totally deserve it. Play harder for all I care.
Those people that you will get into shit with are none of my business.
I will simply stand on the top, watching all of you fall(:

Do your part before you comment about others.
Who are you to make such a comment when you aint any better.
Drop that act, I had enough.

Xoxo ;

2009-08-23T18:15:00.000+08:00

When i am loved, i can love who i am.
When i am cared for, i can care for myself.
When i am treated as someone, i can feel like someone.

I am going off for Nic's ballet concert soon.
Will be going to Bugis tmr to get my stuff, cant wait(:
Rin is sweet, i love you (L)

Xoxo ;

2009-08-22T22:34:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Siew Jun !
You're pretty(:

And, i love my HubbyMa plenty(:

Xoxo ;

2009-08-16T17:47:00.001+08:00

Hey.
Painted my room just now.
It was alright but i swear i aint good O:
In any case, Rin is coming over later.
I swear we'll have a good time bitching(:

Gosh, i am damn busy this coming week.
I hardly can squeeze out time for myself.
Sadden.

By the way, some two-face bitch texted me yesterday night telling
me that she's sorry for all that she has done. I thought that was quite polite
of her till i found out about her stupid lie.
So, what's behind that text bitch? Swen will say i think too much but
i am sorry, i think people have motives.

Xoxo ;

2009-08-15T18:43:00.002+08:00

Lovely ♥
I love ya'll to the max!
I am going to blogshop now(:

Xoxo ;

2009-08-14T18:41:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Jess !

Went Cine with Jess, Swen and Rin.
Caught Where Got Ghost(:
Had Donuts!

Took neoprints after the movie.
Walked to Taka and bought Crystal Jade's cupcakes(:
It was awsome.

Took a train to tiong then homed.

Xoxo ;

2009-08-12T19:19:00.001+08:00

Quiz.

1. What are you thinking in your mind now?
DnT and History projects.

2. Who was the last person that text you?
J.

3. What do you think love is?
Game, when i'm flirting.
Everything, when i am in love.

4. Do you have a boyfriend?
-

5. If you are granted 3 wishes, what would it be?
Firstly, i want my family, Jess, Swen, Rin and Julie to always be happy.
Secondly, i want a house of my own.
Lastly, i want tons and tons of money.

6. Have you ever thought of dying, truth please?
I love myself, so no.

7. Who are you closest with amomg your friends?
Not closest. But i am closer to Jess, Swen and Rin.

8. What was the last thing you did?
Text.

9. What did your last text received say?
"Okay luhh, okay luhh(: i understand because you got a heavy pride.
Thats why you dont show."

10. Are you having a crush on someone now?
-

11. What's your favourite toy?
Soft toys(:

12. What song do you hear most?
Currently, DBSK's.

13. Who are you chatting with on MSN now?
I aint online.

Exams, exams, exams. I dont really mind how much i get for my papers
but the overall, i must pass everything. Except for History.
I aint good at History, neither am i good at Geog.
So too bad for me.

By the way, i am currently reading a book "The One Hundred"
It's a guide to the pieces every stylish woman must own.
It's kind of interesting. Check it out(:

Bitch ;

Dont be an ass here. Dont complain about the changes you see in her.
People do change due to the environment. Look who is worse.
Who are you to make such a remark when you yourself aint any better.
Look at yourself in the mirror first - you're far worse.
Stop acting bigshot here, for goodness sake.
Stop all those stupid acts cs it isnt cool at all.

Like what i say always, only if you think it's you, then it's you.
PS : This is for someone in my stream. So dont get too sensitive about it(:

Xoxo ;

2009-08-10T17:28:00.004+08:00

1. 3 more days to Jess's Birthday.

Dont be so naive. Face the fact,
dont steal. Whatever will be will be.
Fuck you bitch.

Xoxo ;

2009-08-09T21:29:00.002+08:00

1. 4 more days to Jess's Birthday (L)
2. I am finally done with my planning (:

I am to blame, i'll pay the price.
The cycle goes round and round.
Tell me, what am i suppose to do.

Xoxo ;

2009-08-08T23:54:00.003+08:00

1. 5 more days to Jess Birthday (L)
2. I really need to start saving D:
3. Movie date with Crystal.
4. Movie date with Winwill and Swen.
5. I dont want to screw my CA up.

I will be out for a movie with Mum and Nic tomorrow.
Text me(:

Xoxo ;

2009-08-07T22:46:00.009+08:00

You are one in a million.
You give me strength in whatever i do and you are the reason
why i hang on. I love you big time Swen ♥ (Definitely more than what you think)

Went school. It was boring though.
Up to class, Swen and i did batik together. Ours is Macs.
Took many pictures(:

Ended at 11, cabbed to Vivo with Jess, Swen and Rin.
Had lunch at food junction and sat the Merry go-round with
Swen and Rin. Took many nice pictures with Swen's phone but her
Mum confiscated her damn phone. Too bad, will have to wait.

Caught Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.
I dont find it nice. Jess and i kept going in and out.
I slept for a little while in there O:

Had ice-cream after the show then homed.
Pictures will be up soon(:

Xoxo ;

2009-08-01T22:35:00.011+08:00

Many things happened this week,
and many words touched my heart.

I gave my week to Swen and Rin.
Outings, texting, phoning.
We had an awesome week together. Many heart to heart talks.
Cried together, laughed over the silliest jokes together.
However, i know, deep in Swen's heart, she says this ;

"I want my _.
I really miss the times ;

When all of us go recess together
When all of us go home together
When all of us go buy food together
When all of us go up class together
When all of us bathe together
When all of us go toilet together
When all of us go change together
When all of us play together
When all of us talk together
When all of us laugh together
When all of us hate some people together
When all of us gossip together
When all of us fight together
When all of us shout together
When all of us run together
When all of us walk together
When all of us sit together
When all of us get into trouble together
When all of us cheer each other up
When all of us are there for each another no matter what"

I felt bad when i read this in her blog.
Sunhine GGF, i am really sorry.
You have to face the fact that misunderstandings do happen.
On the other hand, thinking about it again, how much time do we have left?
It's not a hundred percent that the five of us will go up to the same class
next year. Why dont we just treasure the time we have for each other now?
This aint a ordinary clique. It's a clique with lovely people like you guys where
i can never, never find anywhere. Darlings, you guys really make my day.
Saranghae, i love you ♥

Friday

Swen, Rin, Denise and i cabbed to Bugis.
Rin and i went to change. Swen said we took an hour O:
There after, ate Fish and Chip for lunch.

Denise left for tuition, the rest of us went to The Wallet Shop
to get my pencil case and then headed to Bugis Street.
Shop till i drop! (:
Rin and i bought alot of things. Poor Swen, she had to wait
for the two of us. At 5plus, i asked Swen to leave first cs
she was really tired but Rin and i were not done.
Guess what? I left my watch with Swen O:

Anyways, Rin and i left there at 6plus.
Took train with her, homed.

For one thing that i have to blog about is what Mrs Lee
said. I was truly touched.
"I think next year, i will miss this class cs ya'll
brighten up my day."

I always thought that she is those kind of evil teacher
but now, i know she isnt. She's nicer than i thought.
I bet i'll miss her too when next year comes.

J ;

When we first came together, i know it will be hard.
I know we'll face obstacles and i see it all coming.
Probably it's my character, probably is your attitude.
Probably it's those people between us, probably it's words we heard.
This week has been a tough week for us. Yet, we're able to overcome everything.

Share with me your little secrets and i'll do the same.
I am tired of being the last to know.
Trust me like how i always trusted you. Things wont be the same,
if there's more trust. Why care about people around us?
We started off with nothing and now, we have came this far.
I dont wish to see anyone or anything coming in between us.
Cs after all, i love you ♥

Bitch ;

Look who is talking.
Please, for goodness sake, dont poke your nose into other people's
business. Wanna play, i can play even harder.
Dont test my patient. Jolly well know your enemy before you do anything.
Dont come act bigshot, it's useless. Come confront me for all i care, busybody.
I dont deal with people like you. It's a total waste of time and effort.
I pray hard that you will get into trouble someday(:
God will punish you for all that you've done.

Xoxo ;

2009-07-27T21:32:00.005+08:00

Only if there's more trust.
When you did something wrong, after a little of
coaxing, you expect a forgiveness.
But now, i did nothing. Nothing and yet i am getting this
kind of treatment.

Its taking me this long Baby, but i figured you out.
You're thinking we'll be fine again, but not this time around.
You dont have to call anymore, i won't pick up the phone.
This is the last straw, dont wanna hurt anymore.

You can say that you're sorry, but i don't believe you Baby,
like i did before, you're not sorry.
Looking so innocent, i might believe you if i didn't know.
Could've loved you all my life, if you hadnt left me waiting in the cold.
You got to your share of secrets and I'm tired of being last to know.
You had me falling for you and it never would've gone away.
You used to shine so bright but i watched all of it fade.

Xoxo ;

2009-07-25T21:27:00.000+08:00

Had a lovely time with Jess, Swen and Rin ytd.
BK-ed at Vivo then went to buy our notebooks.
Liverpool was there.

Jess left earlier.
Went to Giant to get Swen's seaweed. Guess what?
We saw Amanda's mum. They two were scared to death plus
Swen and i was interlocking our fingers O:

In any case, we got her seaweed and before
we leave, Rin and i got Swen to sit on Thomas the train ^^

那是我用心保持的承诺.

Xoxo ;

2009-07-20T21:26:00.000+08:00

Hey.
Today 2A has a juicy gossip about G.
I have read it all up. I find it pretty hilarious and I actually saw my name in it.
Well, none of my business though. I can even forget that she exists in the class O:

Rights, I have to rant about certain things.
My Mum is on my nerves. Go ahead and threaten me for all you want.
I can’t be bothered. You have a role to play for the reason why
I ended up like this. Where are those loves? Oh, what is love?
It doesn’t really matter anymore if you are doting more on
Nicole, care more for or her or whatsoever.
All you’ll tell me is that she’s younger than me.
Oh, please. Can you find a better excuse?

Her attitude is like shit – getting from bad to worse and yet you give in to her.
Whatever she wants, you’ll get it for her immediately.
What about me? I gave fuck attitude is cs of the fucking way
ya’ll actually treated me and all you know how to do is to give me a fuck face.
Things that I want, you will always tell me “When I am free, I’ll get it for you.”
Or else, you will tell me that I am old enough to get it for myself.
Fine! Then give me more money.
Cs money is everything and living without money and luxury is important to me now.

Lets not talking about anything else but the electronic devises that we own.
Nic has a Cell phone, an iPod, a PSP and a DS. What about me?
I only have an iPod. She requested to get the LG Ice-cream phone.
Though you said “See how”, I know, in the end,
you’ll still get it for her. I know, you said, if I do well in my
CA2 you will get me the phone I want. And so?
You will simply use the excuse that you are getting me
a new phone and so you’ll get it for her as well. Am I not right?
People say “life is unfair, live with it” I say “my parents are bias, I can’t take it”
Well, it’s okay if you don’t love me cs I love myself a lot.
I am grateful cs at the very least you bother to make
breakfast for me in the morning and I know, someday,
I’ll still forgive you for what you did cs you’re my Mum after all.

Xoxo ;

2009-07-18T21:24:00.000+08:00

Thursday

Out to Vivo with Julie, Swen and Rin.
Had KFC. It was lovely, we all laughed till we drop(:

Friday

Cabbed to IJBT with Swen, Rin and Jess.
Went all around the school. I swear the conflicks there is nice(:
I saw Swen's sister too ; MA SYDNI.
Super adorable and i was made to dance chicken dance for her O:
Still, i think Swendi is cuter (L)

Today

Tuition as usual. I did only five graph sums and 5 pages of
corrections in two an a half hours O: Silly.
Crystal as there too but she came two hours later D:
Come earlier next week(:

Headed to OG to get something for Nicole.
I saw think duckie but Mum dont want to but for me.
She ask me to go More Than Words to get.
Honestly, i dont like More Than Words stuff.
I WANT THAT DUCKIE! So, i am going to get it myself, next week(:

Here's part of the conversation between Swen and i.
I think she's just so sweet and lovely.
Swen, i love you long time ♥

I damn confused now says: I dun wan papa and mama to fight )":

V say: I love you mann, so nice uhh.

I damn confused now says: Haha

I damn confused now says: Cos u r my papa.

I damn confused now says: Got anytimg text me ok?

I damn confused now says: I goin my bf party liao.

Oh, Rin came over just now at 8plus.
She is pretty(: Buddy, are you jealous? ^^

Rights. This week was a painful one. I have an heartache almost everyday.

For people who have nothing better to do but spread rumours,
go ahead. I dont live to see your fuck attitude. GET THAT INTO YOUR HEAD.
I have limited patient as well, dont push your luck.
I dont believe that i cant live without anyone in my life.
It's just a matter of time and how fast you can get over it.
Continue to screw my life and i will screw yours as hard.
I have real life example (for those who know). Dont ever test me -
you know i mean what i say. Please, do not fucking act bigshot
infront of me. I aint afraid. I've seen too much, so much that it's
nothing to me anymore. Feel free to criticise, i wont give a shit.
Bitch, you aint any better.

This is for you, only if you think so(:

I was watching the programme "Living with Michael Jackson"
I remembered her said that the world is lack of love.
Lets not talk about the world. Plainly just my house,
i feel no love. Whatever it is, life goes on. Dont blame me if
i am like that now, it's cs i have no love. Plus, everyday, i have silly
stuff adding on to it. I mean everyday.
I am sick and tired of my life. I feel so numb.

Sorry, i dont know how to love.
I trust myself more than anyone and
i love myself more than anyone could love me.

Xoxo ;

2009-07-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

100 Questions tagged by Rachel Y.

1 Real name ; Vivian Chan
2 Nickname(s) ; V / Vian
3 Star sign ; Gemini
4 Male or female ; Female
5 Elementary ; CHIJ Kellock
6 Middle School ; CHIJ STC
7 High School ; -
8 Hair color ; Black
9 Long or short hair ; Coming shoulder length
10 Loud or Quiet ; Mixture of both
11 Sweats or Jeans ; None
12 Phone or Camera ; Both
13 Fruits or fried foods ; Fruits

14 Drink or Smoke ; Both
15 Do you have a crush on someone ; -
16 Eat or Drink ; Drink
17 Piercings ; Yeah
18 Tattoos ; Perhaps, someday
19 Been in an airplane ; Duhh
20 Been in a relationship ; Yes O:
21 Been in a car accident ; Nah
22 Been in a first fight ; -

Your First.

23 First piercing ; P2
24 First best friend ; Teddybear
25 First award ; P1 (:
26 First crush ; -
27 First fashion sense ; O:
28 First kiss ; Grandma

Your Last.

29 Last person you talked to ; Carin
30 Last person you texted ; Carin
31 Last person you watched a movie with ; Swendi
32 Last food you ate ; Noodles
33 Last movie you watched ; Hannah Montana The Movie
34 Last song you listened to ; Heal The World (MJ)
35 Last thing you bought ; Food
36 Last person you hugged ; -

You favourite.

37 Food ; -
38 Drinks ; Cold stuff
39 Clothing ; Tees, shorts/FBTs
40 Books ; Romance
41 Music ; Depends
42 Flower ; No preference
43 Colours ; All
44 Movies ; As long as it's with Clique
45 Positions ; O:

In 2008.

47 Kissed in the snow ; Wished

48 Celebrated Halloween ; Yups (:
49 Had your heart broken ; Into dust
50 Went over the minutes on your cell phone ; Nope
51 Someone questioned your sexual orientation ; Nah O:
52 Came out of the closet ; No
53 Got pregnant ; Nuts
54 Had an abortion ; Totally madness
55 Done something you've regretted ; Yes, bitch
56 Broke a promise ; Probably
57 Hid a secret ; It's it a secret -.-
58 Pretended to be happy ; I did
59 Met someone who changed your life ; Totally (:
60 Pretended to be sick ; Never
61 Left the country ; Taiwan !
62 Tried something you normally wouldnt try and liked it ; Yeah
63 Cried over the silliest thing ; Yarh, fcuk that bitch
64 Ran a mile - Yeah O:
65 Went to the beach with your best friend ; Definitely
66 Stayed single the whole year ; Possible, but i dint.

Currently.

67 Eating ; No
68 Drinking ; No
69 I'm about to ; Call Carin
70 Listening to ; Takin Over The World (PCD)
71 Plans for today ; At home
72 Waiting for ; Time to fly
73 Want kids ; Why not
74 Want to get married ; When time comes
75 Career in mind ; Not to share
76 Lips or eyes ; Both
77 Shorter or taller ; Taller
78 Romantic or spontaneous ; Mixture of both
79 Nice stomach or nice arms ; Both
80 Sensitive or loud ; Both
81 Hook-up or relationship ; Relationship
82 Trouble-maker or hesitant ; Trouble-maker
83 Lost glasses/contacts - Both !
84 Ran away from home - Almost, to Julie's (Last year)
85 Hold a gun/knife for self defense ; No
86 Killed somebody ; Never
87 Broken someone's heart ; Yeah. Heartbreaker
88 Been arrested ; No
89 Cried when someone died ; -

Believes.

90 Yourself ; Yes
91 Miracles ; I am the miracle
92 Love at first sight ; -
93 Heaven ; Yeah
94 Santa Claus ; My Mum (:
95 Sex on the first date ; -
96 Kiss on the first date ; -

Truthfully.

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now ; -
98. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life ; I could be happier O:
99. Do you believe in God ; Yeah
100. This is the 100th and last ; At last

Do this if you want.

Xoxo ;